Last night was my last Ultraviolet Gala as a collegian. What? I’m not sure how that’s even possible so surely that statement cannot be true. When I put on my badge before heading out the door, it definitely had not sunk in yet. I’m not sure it has even now.
Being a senior is weird. Like you’re having all of these emotions about looking forward to your next steps and being anxious about the uncertainty of what the future holds while also feeling kind of depressed about all of the things you know you’re going to leave behind when you graduate. No more classes. No more advising appointments. No more professors pushing you to expand your mind. No more frat parties. (Not that I’m super upset about that one, but I’m sure I will miss having the option.) No more leisurely mornings when your professor cancels class. No more formals, date parties, or socials. No more weekly chapter meetings. No more student discounts at the movie theater. No more mandatory study or service hours. No more casually bumping into someone you know on campus. I know there will be some things that are even more exciting (although I can’t think of any at this red hot moment) to take their place, but I can’t help but feel a little sentimental about all of the changes that are coming to the life I’ve known for the last three and a half years.
Attending college and joining a sorority have been two of the most challenging things I’ve ever done in my life and they’ve made me grow in more ways than I can count. I’ve become a more critical thinker, confident leader, supportive friend, and courageous young woman. I have learned so much about humility, compassion, loyalty, trust, and integrity. I can attribute a lot of these things to being on my own for the first time and really having to figure out how to do things for myself, but I don’t think I would be nearly the same person I am today if I hadn’t made the decision to join a sorority. And it’s a decision I keep making again and again.
Last night was one of those nights when I remember why I am still a Sigma Kappa. Whether it was because I was really touched by what our keynote speaker had to say about the friendships she has maintained since she was a collegian 30 years ago or the fact that nobody at my table judged me for how much food I took from the buffet, I’m not sure. I felt so grateful to be in the company of so many incredible women and their families. Although I am starting to see the finish line for my collegiate years, I know I will be able to look forward to more memories being made with these women for years to come.
Necklace: Mesh Choker in Gold by bebe
Lipstick: Studdcd Kiss in Vampire by Kat Von D